Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart. - Wordsworth

oh, bother...

I don't know why I'm debating something I already know the answer to... but I got an e-mail tonight from my Mary Kay Director talking about Career Conference registration, which begins tonight. It's $80, it's a Friday and Saturday in March in Columbus. We'll stay at the Hyatt. Register tonight at midnight for a chance to win blahblahblah.

Here's the thing.

I haven't even been to a local meeting yet. I have no desire to go. If I had any, it was squashed early on. But for some reason, I want to go to this. 

But I won't.

Because I am not friends with any of the girls in this area that do Mary Kay. The girl who signed me up doesn't count. 

And yet I KNOW that if I did have a friend who did MK, I would go to this thing and have a blast. I mean, I really wanna go. But not by myself. Not with no one to talk to. OK- not without a non-stranger to talk to.

Sigh. sighsighsigh. sigh

tale as old as time...

Bobby and I saw Beauty and the Beast in 3D not too long ago. I was like "Shit we just paid $26 dollars to see a movie we already own" LOL. I enjoyed it more than the kids in the theater though. Especially the Tangled short beforehand. Bobby and I were practically the only ones laughing out loud.

I'm waiting EVAR SO PATIENTLY for my federal tax return!!! It's gonna let me have a revolving huge balance in my bank account so I can stop living paycheck to paycheck lol! It's also going to book our get-away trip in March. Yes, we moved it to March. Bobby will be on spring break so that's one less thing to stress him out, missing a couple days of class.

We're only going to Cleveland but it will be nice to get away and spend some time alone together, because it's nearly impossible at the moment. We even decided to stay in Beachwood instead of downtown, because the parking won't cost us anything and we aren't far if there is something we want to see down there. I think visiting Melt is on our list, we want the pierogi sandwich haha!

Food Network is our usual channel to tune into when nothing else is on and there are lots of reasons we want to go roadtripping, thanks to Diners Drive Ins and Dives.

Anyway! We'll be right near Legacy Village also, so we can do some shopping. And I can go to Lush! Maybe Ikea to get the helmer I've been lusting after to store my billions of nail polish in.

Another thing my mind has been preoccupied with lately is our honeymoon!! I am DYING to book our stinkin cruise. At least the cruise. Get it while it's cheap ya know.

I don't want to spend nearly half my return on booking that though, so once i'm willing to drop $500 of my regular savings, that's what I'll do next.

We have no idea where we will end up once Bobby is done with school. He has connections in Erie but who knows if they will need an Art Teacher when his time is near.  It's exciting and anxiety inducing all at the same time! We'll end up somewhere! We're gonna move somewhere! But where??? haha.

Hopefully we will know by the end of this year. :)

I am soo excited!  I am eager for everything to happen, ya know? I'm tired of waiting!!!! Especially when all my friends who just got engaged are getting married before me, moving in with their fiances before me, having babiesss!! It really makes me feel like I'm way behind the curve. I am NOT happy with the way my life is right now and I am so eager for it to change for the better!!

people throw rocks at things that shine

I never made much of a 'ending 2011' post, but so many things have happened in the past year that have made me a better person than I was in 2010. So I'll go ahead and write that one off as a success. 

When I think back to ways in which I have suffered in the past five years or so, I become so grateful for every experience that has led me to right here, right now.

Things may not be exactly as I want them right now. Sure, I'm really eager to move out and begin my life with Bobby in the way I've dreamed about. I long for the simplest things! Making dinner for us every night, maintaining the house, just being there beside him for every sunrise.

But I have those things to look forward to. And I need to be grateful I at least have that! We will appreciate being together so much more after having been denied the opportunity for so long.

Mary Kay has been a really positive experience for me so far. I really love this opportunity, and maybe one day it will lead me to a place where I can focus on it to carry my share of the weight once Bobby has established himself in his career. I just can't say enough good about the products, they are game changing! And I SO appreciate the support I have received from my family and friends. To all of you who have supported me on facebook or by placing an order, I am really overwhelmed with thanks.

And since this year is the year of diminishing for me ;) I have a few goals I'd like to share:

1. Lose 20 lbs by my birthday (April 20) - I figure if I can lose 15 in 17 days I can lose 20 by April. Going back to th 17 day diet! Remarkably, I have not gained back all that weight I lost last Spring.

2. Become debt-free! (with the exception of school loans, lol!) - This is important, because I want Bobby and I to start our lives together (as if we already haven't) with as little debt as possible, ideally none. I know I will likely be paying off my college loans for many years LOL.

These are important for all the reasons you would normally think of, but also because I need to save hardcore for our wedding AND because I am purchasing a wedding dress at the end of this year. FINALLY. I can act upon a wedding related thing. LOL

Anyone who has been with me for the past several years knows I am a ridiculously lucky girl with the way things came together, and I truly canno wait to marry the man of my dreams. This is a union tied with some kind of godly knot. Every time I think about it I am more convinced.

I think I need a morning nap already - we went to the movies last night and I accidentally spilled the salt on our popcorn LOL. Needless to say, I woke up with my eyelids practically glued to my eyeballs and my mouth so dry I could barely swallow! And I barely even ate any!!! So I woke up to hydrate.... and here I am!

Getting my taxes done today - yay for first year of total refund!!! So many things to do with that $$!!! Must remind self not to spend it on nail polish ;)

Have a beautiful Sunday!

love.love.love!!!

 

 

Sorry for the slight blur in that photo, I used my phone to take it! I am so freakin' glad I discovered how great Mary Kay products are. My skin has needed something new for AWHILE and I'm really glad I took the plunge and tried it. My current routine is the TimeWise Miracle Set, it has a cleanser, moisturizer and a day and night formula. I also use the acne control toner. I have not broken out since I used that set in conjunction with the toner. I use the firming eye cream too, and the satin lips set, which is THE BOMB!! I always avoided wearing lip products because nevermind my addiction to chapstick, I still had dry patches every day. NO MORE!

I also use the microderm set every couple of days. Cannot reiterate enough how glad I am that I decided to invest in some quality skincare. My skin is so much smoother, clearer and healthier now. Not just saying it because I'm selling it, saying it because it's true. Thank you Samantha Schuerman for getting me curious about Mary Kay!!! She's a youtuber who said she uses the TimeWise cleanser and moisturizer and it never hurt her extremely sensitive skin... she's the reason I contacted the only mary kay rep I know to order my first Miracle Set... and then I decided to sell it!

If anyone is interested, my mary kay website is www.marykay.com/kmaria

I cannot recommend these products enough! Next week I am featuring an awesome promo that I can't wait to share on my MK facebook page. Spend $65 and get a free brilliant eye bundle ($19 value!). Spend $125 and get 3 free eyeshadows of your choice (OR a brilliant eye bundle) AND a mini compact to hold it in ! Free!!! ($38.50 value!) It's a great incentive to get started on  a new sknicare routine especially because I know a lot of women are thinking it may be time to start an anti-aging routine or even just something more sophisitcated than their usual. 

Your skin starts losing its zing at age 15!!! There are women in this company who are FAR older than they look, thanks to using the products for prevention for so long.

I have been loving being involved in this company so far. It is not work for someone who loves the products :)

I also apologize for never sharing my freakin' Eco Emi boxes.... I fail I know. I do apologize for that. Here are some photos of my last box:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I love Eco Emi, but I admit, some of my samples have been expired. That Raw Cacao Bliss is from 2/2010 and I had an expired chocolate bar in the previous box. I still enjoy it though. The lip gloss from this box is fab, the mini candle smelled just like a pine tree, the vitamin c chews are GREAT! I haven't tried the laundry detergent or the shamp/conditioner, but the socks are super comfy and were a great surprise. The lip color is not really my fav. It smells like cosmetics I had when I was 5 and the color is not for me.

My Birchbox this month was amazing... it had a full size stila eyeliner in purple tang, some really decent sized c.o. bigelow lavendar peppermint shampoo and conditioner, a juicy couture perfume sample, and some witchcraft granola. oh, and a birchbox magnet. lol!

Anyway, going to bed those photos took FOREVARR to upload!! Goodnight! :)